Last time I posted on this topic, it seemed a bit "My life has been so shit!" and "I'm simply looking for sympathy" (at least that's how it seemed in my eyes!). I want to make sure that you guys don't think that! Yes, I've had some rough patches, from living on the streets to my outing to my parents, but there have been many great moments as well!
Since moving to Brisbane in 2010, I've had an amazing time, met some amazing people and had some of the most memorable experiences! Like I said last time, I've come out of my shell a lot (especially over the last 10 or so months) as both a pup and a person. I believe this is because of the people I've met who have helped me get in touch with my inner pup and have treated me not as a piece of dog shit on the sole of their shoe, but as an equal... A human! This has not only helped me to open up, but also helped with my depression and self confidence. One of the places I've come across where I've been completely accepted for who I am and not had a single person look at me with "WTF?!" eyes is Brisbane BootCo, a local once monthly gay leather, denim and uniform night. Yes, being under the protection of the president (and Mr Leather Australia & NZ '08,) helped give me the confidence to go out and be who I am, but it was still a big step, which led to bigger steps being taken alone. My confidence wasn't the only thing working against me, I'm not the kind of person who likes to go out all (I much prefer to stay in with some good friends and decent music... And maybe throw in a drink or two! =P). After a while I had gained enough confidence to start venturing out alone and found Hellfire Quensland. I've only been a few times, but have had an amazing time on each occasion and have met some absolutely wonderful people.
Just recently, I was in a karaoke competition at a local gay bar (in case you couldn't tell!) and made it through to the final five. This was a big achievement for me. Although I used to be part of the local amateur theatre back home, it's been quite some time since I've been on stage with all eyes on me, and the first few weeks were a bit nerve racking! Unfortunately, my confidence on stage only really blossomed this week, only to be booted off. Being in the competition was a great experience and (again!) a real help with my confidence!
Just a few weeks ago, a very special wolf walked out of my life, which hurt like a bitch. It's a real shame that it had to end the way it did. As they say, nothing lasts forever! A lot of people had seen statuses on a couple of sites and have asked what happened, so I just thought I'd put it out there now, because I was a little bit cryptic when it happened. It's been strange seeing him out and about (especially at karaoke!) and not being able to be how we were, and I really do hurt when I do see him. I honestly wish him all the best in the future.
Since I'm getting things off my chest, I just want to make a few things clear, and unfortunately, the people who I want this message to get to most likely wont read this. But fuck it!
1) DON'T call me slave/boy/boi or anything of the like. My name is Beau. I am a pup. If you want to talk to me, use either one of those two. It's really not that hard to see either! Both are in ALL my screen names!!!
2) DON'T refer to me as "it". I'm male. I have a fully functioning cock and it's been there since birth!
3) DON'T give me orders online! EVER! I will bite! HARD!
4) I DON'T play on cam! Don't bother asking!
5) Respect is not a right! It's something that must be earned! By going against the above, you are showing a lack of respect towards me. The moment you do that, you don't stand a chance of earning respect from me!
In part three, I will tell you a bit more about my pup side, since I have barely touched on that subject.
Until then....
*waves paw*
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