It's very interesting to see that even after ceasing to post, people are still visiting and, hopefully, learning from what I have posted.
It's been strange over the last several months. Not only have I not blogged, but I have also spent next to no time online. There are many people (and pups) who I miss chatting to on a regular basis, and many of these people may not know about the recent changes in my life.
First and foremost, I "celebrated" my 21st birthday back in late March. That certainly has not been the highlight of my year. It's not the whole having to be an adult thing, but more of a "why did I do that?" and "what was I thinking?" kinda thing. It's was just a shitty weekend.
The biggest change to my life has been going from being unemployed for over three years to working full time as a personal assistant in a telecommunications call centre. It's been a huge shock to my system (not used to having to wake at 6:30am!!!) but it's been great actually having money to play with after I pay my bills and buy the essentials. I guarantee that my gear collection will increase in size over the coming months. =P
Not only has this job given me the ability to have a life (bit hard to when you have no cash!), it's also given me an amazing esteem boost. It's only been a few weeks but already I notice that I am smiling more and my tagging can't/wont stop wagging.
Showing posts with label BeauPup. Show all posts
Showing posts with label BeauPup. Show all posts
Thursday, 3 May 2012
Friday, 9 December 2011
So... Who is BeauPup? Part 2.
Last time I posted on this topic, it seemed a bit "My life has been so shit!" and "I'm simply looking for sympathy" (at least that's how it seemed in my eyes!). I want to make sure that you guys don't think that! Yes, I've had some rough patches, from living on the streets to my outing to my parents, but there have been many great moments as well!
Since moving to Brisbane in 2010, I've had an amazing time, met some amazing people and had some of the most memorable experiences! Like I said last time, I've come out of my shell a lot (especially over the last 10 or so months) as both a pup and a person. I believe this is because of the people I've met who have helped me get in touch with my inner pup and have treated me not as a piece of dog shit on the sole of their shoe, but as an equal... A human! This has not only helped me to open up, but also helped with my depression and self confidence. One of the places I've come across where I've been completely accepted for who I am and not had a single person look at me with "WTF?!" eyes is Brisbane BootCo, a local once monthly gay leather, denim and uniform night. Yes, being under the protection of the president (and Mr Leather Australia & NZ '08,) helped give me the confidence to go out and be who I am, but it was still a big step, which led to bigger steps being taken alone. My confidence wasn't the only thing working against me, I'm not the kind of person who likes to go out all (I much prefer to stay in with some good friends and decent music... And maybe throw in a drink or two! =P). After a while I had gained enough confidence to start venturing out alone and found Hellfire Quensland. I've only been a few times, but have had an amazing time on each occasion and have met some absolutely wonderful people.
Just recently, I was in a karaoke competition at a local gay bar (in case you couldn't tell!) and made it through to the final five. This was a big achievement for me. Although I used to be part of the local amateur theatre back home, it's been quite some time since I've been on stage with all eyes on me, and the first few weeks were a bit nerve racking! Unfortunately, my confidence on stage only really blossomed this week, only to be booted off. Being in the competition was a great experience and (again!) a real help with my confidence!
Just a few weeks ago, a very special wolf walked out of my life, which hurt like a bitch. It's a real shame that it had to end the way it did. As they say, nothing lasts forever! A lot of people had seen statuses on a couple of sites and have asked what happened, so I just thought I'd put it out there now, because I was a little bit cryptic when it happened. It's been strange seeing him out and about (especially at karaoke!) and not being able to be how we were, and I really do hurt when I do see him. I honestly wish him all the best in the future.
Since I'm getting things off my chest, I just want to make a few things clear, and unfortunately, the people who I want this message to get to most likely wont read this. But fuck it!
1) DON'T call me slave/boy/boi or anything of the like. My name is Beau. I am a pup. If you want to talk to me, use either one of those two. It's really not that hard to see either! Both are in ALL my screen names!!!
2) DON'T refer to me as "it". I'm male. I have a fully functioning cock and it's been there since birth!
3) DON'T give me orders online! EVER! I will bite! HARD!
4) I DON'T play on cam! Don't bother asking!
5) Respect is not a right! It's something that must be earned! By going against the above, you are showing a lack of respect towards me. The moment you do that, you don't stand a chance of earning respect from me!
In part three, I will tell you a bit more about my pup side, since I have barely touched on that subject.
Until then....
*waves paw*
Since moving to Brisbane in 2010, I've had an amazing time, met some amazing people and had some of the most memorable experiences! Like I said last time, I've come out of my shell a lot (especially over the last 10 or so months) as both a pup and a person. I believe this is because of the people I've met who have helped me get in touch with my inner pup and have treated me not as a piece of dog shit on the sole of their shoe, but as an equal... A human! This has not only helped me to open up, but also helped with my depression and self confidence. One of the places I've come across where I've been completely accepted for who I am and not had a single person look at me with "WTF?!" eyes is Brisbane BootCo, a local once monthly gay leather, denim and uniform night. Yes, being under the protection of the president (and Mr Leather Australia & NZ '08,) helped give me the confidence to go out and be who I am, but it was still a big step, which led to bigger steps being taken alone. My confidence wasn't the only thing working against me, I'm not the kind of person who likes to go out all (I much prefer to stay in with some good friends and decent music... And maybe throw in a drink or two! =P). After a while I had gained enough confidence to start venturing out alone and found Hellfire Quensland. I've only been a few times, but have had an amazing time on each occasion and have met some absolutely wonderful people.
Just recently, I was in a karaoke competition at a local gay bar (in case you couldn't tell!) and made it through to the final five. This was a big achievement for me. Although I used to be part of the local amateur theatre back home, it's been quite some time since I've been on stage with all eyes on me, and the first few weeks were a bit nerve racking! Unfortunately, my confidence on stage only really blossomed this week, only to be booted off. Being in the competition was a great experience and (again!) a real help with my confidence!
Just a few weeks ago, a very special wolf walked out of my life, which hurt like a bitch. It's a real shame that it had to end the way it did. As they say, nothing lasts forever! A lot of people had seen statuses on a couple of sites and have asked what happened, so I just thought I'd put it out there now, because I was a little bit cryptic when it happened. It's been strange seeing him out and about (especially at karaoke!) and not being able to be how we were, and I really do hurt when I do see him. I honestly wish him all the best in the future.
Since I'm getting things off my chest, I just want to make a few things clear, and unfortunately, the people who I want this message to get to most likely wont read this. But fuck it!
1) DON'T call me slave/boy/boi or anything of the like. My name is Beau. I am a pup. If you want to talk to me, use either one of those two. It's really not that hard to see either! Both are in ALL my screen names!!!
2) DON'T refer to me as "it". I'm male. I have a fully functioning cock and it's been there since birth!
3) DON'T give me orders online! EVER! I will bite! HARD!
4) I DON'T play on cam! Don't bother asking!
5) Respect is not a right! It's something that must be earned! By going against the above, you are showing a lack of respect towards me. The moment you do that, you don't stand a chance of earning respect from me!
In part three, I will tell you a bit more about my pup side, since I have barely touched on that subject.
Until then....
*waves paw*
Monday, 14 November 2011
Where is BeauPup?!
As you can see, it's been quite a while since I last posted. It's not because I've been lazy or lack of topics to write on, but simply because I've been a very busy little puppy!
Back in early September I entered myself into a karaoke competition down at my favourite bar and just four weeks ago the competition started. Every Wednesday night I get up on stage, in a costume appropriate to the song I'm singing or the theme for the week. So far we have had choose your own, pub songs, 80's, black divas and this week is rock anthems. I've done well to get this far! There have been a couple of videos taken of me while on stage, so once I get them uploaded I'll post a link
As well as Wednesday night karaoke, I've been going out on Friday nights for karaoke. It gives me a chance to practise my song for the up coming week.
Apart from being a total karaoke whore, there had been a fair amount of time spent with my brother pup, making new friends and just being a social butterfly.
Once this karaoke competition is over and done with, I will get back to posting on a more regular basis. =)
Tail wags to all.
Till next time....
Back in early September I entered myself into a karaoke competition down at my favourite bar and just four weeks ago the competition started. Every Wednesday night I get up on stage, in a costume appropriate to the song I'm singing or the theme for the week. So far we have had choose your own, pub songs, 80's, black divas and this week is rock anthems. I've done well to get this far! There have been a couple of videos taken of me while on stage, so once I get them uploaded I'll post a link
As well as Wednesday night karaoke, I've been going out on Friday nights for karaoke. It gives me a chance to practise my song for the up coming week.
Apart from being a total karaoke whore, there had been a fair amount of time spent with my brother pup, making new friends and just being a social butterfly.
Once this karaoke competition is over and done with, I will get back to posting on a more regular basis. =)
Tail wags to all.
Till next time....
Wednesday, 28 September 2011
So... Who is BeauPup? Part 1.
This is a question not often asked. Those of you who have read my profiles on Pup Zone, FetLife, FetishMen or Recon (username is BeauPup on all) know a bit about the sexual side of me as well as my nature while in pupspace (though, I do need to update that a bit. I've come out of my shell both as a pup and a person a lot since I wrote that), but very few people know anything about what I am like outside that, which is why I have started this blog. It wont be all "Me, me me!!!" (I promise!) but I will show you all more and more of a side of me you otherwise wouldn't get to know. I'll also provide you, my readers, the chance to ask me questions on any subject from time to time.
So now, back to the point, who am I?
I was raised in Hervey Bay, Queensland and spent most of my life so far there. When I was 17, I moved out of home and have never even considered moving back. A few days before my 19th birthday, I moved to Brisbane, Queensland, which is where my life thus far really began. Life in Hervey Bay was pretty miserable. I was always "that kid". You know the kid I'm talking about. That kid who had no friends, was picked on, bullied and tormented by pretty much everybody most every day. There were even days where I would come home black and blue from the physical abuse. When I was 12, on the night of my grade seven graduation (going from primary school to junior high) a group of girls who had given my shit all year were at it again. It got to the point where I broke down into tears and refused to go to grad. When I got home, my younger brother started to get on my nerves. That plus the prior events of that day pushed me over the edge and... It was the first time the thought of suicide went through my mind and the beginning of my self harm period. That thought showed its hideous face several more times over the years.
When i was 14, a friend of a friend of mine outed me to the school. After that, shit really hit the fan. I was faced with verbal abuse on a daily basis because of my sexuality. There was, once again, many occasions where things got physical and if not for the fact that a nearby teacher saw what was happening... I hate to think what may have happened!
The year after, aged 15, I was outed to my parents. To cut a long story short, a friend and her homophobic bitch of a friend got drunk and called my parents.
Throughout my teens a lot of people turned their backs on me, including other gay teens who didn't go through half the shit I did. Many vicious rumours went around town about me. It was hell!
In 2008, the year I moved out from my parents place, I dropped out of school due to a few unfortunate circumstances and also lost my job due to the affects of the GFC. 2008 was also the year I got the chance to share my story of my outing to the school with thousands of people through a group devised play called 'Game On!'. I worked with and met some amazing people from all over the Queensland coast and heard so many stories of both homophobia and acceptance. We took the play to several local high schools in the Bundaberg region. Sharing my story with so many people was a phenomenal experience. Not only did I get to share my story, but I heard stories of similar experiences from members of the audience. The most confronting part of that experience for me was the fact that I took the role of the stereotypical homophobic jock. I was the one who gave shit to the character based on myself. I recently read a news article written by one of the actresses who lives in Bundaberg. She spoke of how she had noticed a decrease in homophobia in the local area and how the affects of the play had continued nearly three years on.
As I mentioned earlier, I moved to Brisbane just before my 19th birthday. Life certainly hasn't been a walk in the park since the move, but it hasn't been as tough and it's given me the chance to get in touch with who I really am.
Although this is "The Ramblings of BeauPup", I feel I've rambled on for a little too long now, so I'll stop here and continue this sometime in the near future. =)
*waves paw*
Bye for now!
So now, back to the point, who am I?
I was raised in Hervey Bay, Queensland and spent most of my life so far there. When I was 17, I moved out of home and have never even considered moving back. A few days before my 19th birthday, I moved to Brisbane, Queensland, which is where my life thus far really began. Life in Hervey Bay was pretty miserable. I was always "that kid". You know the kid I'm talking about. That kid who had no friends, was picked on, bullied and tormented by pretty much everybody most every day. There were even days where I would come home black and blue from the physical abuse. When I was 12, on the night of my grade seven graduation (going from primary school to junior high) a group of girls who had given my shit all year were at it again. It got to the point where I broke down into tears and refused to go to grad. When I got home, my younger brother started to get on my nerves. That plus the prior events of that day pushed me over the edge and... It was the first time the thought of suicide went through my mind and the beginning of my self harm period. That thought showed its hideous face several more times over the years.
When i was 14, a friend of a friend of mine outed me to the school. After that, shit really hit the fan. I was faced with verbal abuse on a daily basis because of my sexuality. There was, once again, many occasions where things got physical and if not for the fact that a nearby teacher saw what was happening... I hate to think what may have happened!
The year after, aged 15, I was outed to my parents. To cut a long story short, a friend and her homophobic bitch of a friend got drunk and called my parents.
Throughout my teens a lot of people turned their backs on me, including other gay teens who didn't go through half the shit I did. Many vicious rumours went around town about me. It was hell!
In 2008, the year I moved out from my parents place, I dropped out of school due to a few unfortunate circumstances and also lost my job due to the affects of the GFC. 2008 was also the year I got the chance to share my story of my outing to the school with thousands of people through a group devised play called 'Game On!'. I worked with and met some amazing people from all over the Queensland coast and heard so many stories of both homophobia and acceptance. We took the play to several local high schools in the Bundaberg region. Sharing my story with so many people was a phenomenal experience. Not only did I get to share my story, but I heard stories of similar experiences from members of the audience. The most confronting part of that experience for me was the fact that I took the role of the stereotypical homophobic jock. I was the one who gave shit to the character based on myself. I recently read a news article written by one of the actresses who lives in Bundaberg. She spoke of how she had noticed a decrease in homophobia in the local area and how the affects of the play had continued nearly three years on.
As I mentioned earlier, I moved to Brisbane just before my 19th birthday. Life certainly hasn't been a walk in the park since the move, but it hasn't been as tough and it's given me the chance to get in touch with who I really am.
Although this is "The Ramblings of BeauPup", I feel I've rambled on for a little too long now, so I'll stop here and continue this sometime in the near future. =)
*waves paw*
Bye for now!
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